Well, I am at that stage of motherhood where my arms feel a bit empty.  I do recall feeling this way when T1 was about 2 though, hence I got pregnant with T2.  They felt this way when  T2 was getting bigger, he was a bit older, more like 4, but it was because I was wrangling him AND T1, so I had 2 little ones I was taking care of.  With T2 and T1 being older and at school, it is just T3 and I for most of the day.  I do LOVE that.  Very peaceful.  But also sometimes a little boring.  Like I need something more. 

So I am trying to figure out what exactly more it is I need.

A. Have another baby. 

This could be a good choice.  Probably wouldn’t stimulate my mind much to have a baby.  But I would be so tired, exhausted and overwhelmed that I wouldn’t care my mind wasn’t stimulated.

Also DH and I both feel like 3 is good.  Neither one of us has a strong feeling we should have another one.  I am totally open to that inspiration now.  I have prayed to know, but pretty much the answer is no right now.  I always say, “Time will tell.”  But currently no on the baby . 

B .  Get a job. 

Wait, I have a job.  I am a Childbirth Educator and doula. I moderate the Hypnobabies Yahoo Group too.  I teach 1 night a week, which is perfect for our family.  Then I have on average 1 birth a month.  This is plenty.  I don’t want to be gone too much from my boys. 

C.  Go to School-

I am in 2.5 book clubs, well sort of 3.5.  2 – I am an active member of.  I read the book and go each month.  The .5 is the one that typically meets the night one of my other book clubs meet, so I just go if it happens to be a different night, which it was last month and will be the next 2 months and only if I have already read the book.  Then the other one is an online book club about birth books, we read one every 2 months. 

Here is a picture of the books that are in my to be read pile, this does NOT include my 2 books for book club this month.  There are about 20 books in that section.  Two I have read but reference a lot.  I also have 2 others I am currently reading not on the shelf (not book club ones)  Luckily we have a trip planned for Rob and I to go to Cabo in May without the boys.  I will bring about 8 of these books and read them on the trip.   

Anyway, the point is, I love to learn, I love to do research about things.  I mean how many other moms create surveys on things like birth and breastfeeding just for fun? 

I also really like making Excel spreadsheets.  T1 does too.  He was doing something the other day and said, “I need to make an excel spreadsheet with this information.”  Made me proud. 

I was thinking maybe I need to focus this learning and make something useful of it. 

My choices – midwifery school or get a degree in prenatal or perinatal psychology.  Both up my alley.  Either would totally stimulate my mind.   These two options deserve another post and will get one soon.

D.  Be a better housekeeper. 

Learn to cook, keep my house picked up and decluttered.  Clean the house instead of paying Olivia to clean the house.  Think of all I could do around the house if I wasn’t reading all those books!  But this wouldn’t really stimulate my mind either.   I could probably make some good excel spreadsheets about when to do what and maybe do a survey about certain cleaning questions.  But I don’t think this is really the more I need.  I think I definitely need to grow in these areas and I am working on it slowly but surely… baby steps. 

E.  Spiritual Growth

I certainly could study the scriptures more, meditate, serve others outside of my family.  I certainly could grow in this area as well. 

F.  Homeschool my boys.

This one seems totally crazy and out there and deserves a follow up post, which it shall get.